isnt it amazing How you can have all the Things in the world on your Mind, and a million Things to do, and still End up doing Nothing.
it is as if i am Slowly learning to Not think. everyThing falls back into this Muddled fog and at Times i just simply Exist. as soon as i try to Focus in on one Thing everyThing else jumps out at me all at Once. so Not thinking is a Relief. unfortunatly i sort of Need to think to get anyThing done.
well, Life sucks and Then you die.

Tumultuous Pandumonium of Disturbed Mystification

MindFragment1: you don't really Like him, you just like that he Likes you. you are so Pathetic.

MindFragment2: you do Like him. just Give it some Time. stop Analyzing.

MindFragment3: you are too Scared to admit that you made a Mistake and now you are just Leading him on, Selfish-bitch.

MindFragment4: theSheila was unSure about lionBrother at first too. having two older Brothers, you have just never Seen the girl's side of It.

MindFragment5: you just like the Idea of it all. you want this Idea so much you can not See the Reality of it.

MindFragment6: you want this so much that you are convinced It's not Real, not going to work out. you are over analyzing It.

MindFragment7: He is Amazing, entirely Unique, fascinating, Loving, passionate, Wonderful. you really Like this guy.

MindFragment8: you just Know that you could Never do any better. He is Wonderful. there is something Wrong with you. have you so Crushed that part of you?

MindFragment9: SHUT THE HELL UP!
{9 is my favorite at the Moment}

MindFragments: *grumble, mummer, mumble*

[the Legions then yell WhiteNoise.]
Screw thinking at this point. screw being Productive.

returning Fox, missing Lion, and confused Raven

my Big Brother is finally Back from Ireland! though i Seem to have Lost the other Again.. Picked bigBro up from the Train station and Later on ate Disturbing amounts of iceCream with him and the Munchkins. which was Nice.

my Mind is such a Befuddled mess. i am not Sure what to Write at the Moment. i Guess it would Help if i avoided pushing-Off this Undertaking until midNight. yet i Will press on and Write anyway. if for no other Reason than that i said i Would.-

my foxBother, after our Great iceCream consumption, described to me his Many awesome Ideas. ideas for Characters, World, and such story Elements. the Brilliant expanse of my brothers Imaginations will Never cease to Amaze me. they both Inspire and Intimidate me. that is what Big Brothers are for though Really, Inspiration and Intimidation. i Love my Brothers. dont Know, and Thankfully dont have to Know, what i would Do withOut them. i Think i am getting my lionBrother back tomorrow. the Three of us have Much to Discuss. there may be a long LionFoxRaven coffee trip in the Near future.. we Shall see.

Just anOther day

there is Nothing better than Waking up and Remembering you actually Have to go to Work this morning. {heavy Sarcasm, in case you Missed it]. then Straight from five Hours of standing in the Heat {two and a half of Those in a Greenhouse] to a Counseling session. thankFully there was much Caffeine in the mix.

Stress has an annoying Habit of jumping At you in your Weakest moment, crippling you Mentally, and even physically, as a Result. so in that Crippled state you become Useless, even unAble to get Done some of the Things causing you stress. Horribly inconvenient, Yes?

i was not Really there for the Fireworks...

to sum Up this day in a few Words, i would say: Scary, Confusing, Exhausting, but Good.

we{my Big brother, myself, and him] Journeyed into philly to See the fireworks by the Art museum.
it was an Interesting day to say the Least. there was much Talking and many Questions traded. i Believe we{me and him] know better Where we now Stand and i am Thankful for that.
before we Left, he spoke with my father and it went Well. many Questions there also.

we are Paving our way, Striving to stay on the Lord's Path, and Working to develop our Friendship.

happy Freedom-day, give Thanks.

place, To place, to Place, to All too Familiar place

in Short i feel a Bit like a Juggler's stick. i had to say goodBye to an Awesome friend. that is Always hard, though it was eased by the Prospect of seeing an other amazing Friend. gladly i Say, i cannot complain a Lack of friends Anymore. i have Truly been Blessed to be so Surrounded by some Fantastically Creative Minds and Beautifully Wise Souls. saying goodBye and allowing myself to be Separated by hours of Road was Difficult to say the Least.
the ride Back provided highly interesting Conversation. it was Just my parents, my infant Sister, and myself. the Story vaguely goes like This: a girl who Never admitted to herself, let Alone anyone Else, of ever Liking a boy, two unSuspecting parents, and a Three hour car Ride. then Came a few more texts from him and she Opened the conversation. we Like each other Very much and desire to Develop and Define our relationship with each other. at the Moment we shall remain good Friends with Potential. we are doing our Best to do this Right. Needless to say many Questions ensued. i Believe it went well. Those two are not Ones to openly Freak out. though i have No doubt the alarm Bells were exploding in my father's Head.
this is a New and Strange layer of my onion Life, both sweet and tear-Wrenching. i am Praying every Moment for wisdom and inSight. this is both gloriously Terrifying and ominously Wonderful. Truly, what Life is This?

[first Time Experiences] new Face and Strange confidence

the First Words i ever blog. [i love Irony.]
i have recently Begun trying many new Things. blogging Being one of them. so This is my Blog. i am an Artist and a Writer. so read If you are Intrigued, but i will Write no matter What.
new Experiences, Old customs, what i Think, what i Know, my Loves, Losses, and just Life. much has Happened in my Past that you may Never know and will probably Never Understand, yet this is not about what Has Happened, but rather what Is Happening. so try and Keep Up.
and Here we go...